Unhappy with the code itself and how codes are littered

this post is yet another outburst, hoping to find someone like me who are unhappy with codes are itself.

I'm a JS developer, I work alone in my three years career. I learned paying courses in frontendmasters, treehouse, codeschool, lynda, etc .. I never had an exchange of experiences with anyone.

A few months ago, I've become increasingly critical of my own code, refactoring once after another .. when I finish I think is good, but it's just spend 3 days I think there's something wrong and there goes again ... refactoring.

I can't let go, just to see the working code and go to the next, it has to be beautiful as well, an example would be:

this:

$ ('button'). On ('click', function () {
 $ (this) .hide ();
});

becomes this:

var Toggle = {
 init: function () {
   var button = $('button');

   button.bind('click', this.toggle);
 },

 toggle: function () {
  $(this).hide();
 }
};

Everything needs to be aligned .. well, Its looks like I have OCD.

I search libraries like ember, jquery, etc and i thinkg the source code is horrible..

As you can see, I have a problem. I loved program, never had those problems before and do not know how I was getting in this state.

I would like to ask for help, what could I do to overcome this?? Someone goes through it? I often see stupid codes that could be written in a better way, but just are not ... why is that? I'm freaking out?